Bad stuff happening in your life doesn’t mean that God doesn’t love you. Paul was thrown in prison, beaten, almost drowned in the sea and went through many other trials. By this standard God hated Paul. We shouldn’t think just because such and such a thing is happening that God must either hate us or not be with us. One thing I hear a lot is, “A loving God wouldn’t allow this.” If that was true God wouldn’t have allowed any of the Apostles to get executed in the horrifying ways that they did. God’s will isn’t necessarily what we want. In fact sometimes it’s the complete opposite. Joseph got thrown into prison through no fault of his own. I’m sure he didn’t enjoy that very much at the time, but he never stopped believing in God.
Sometimes if suffering increases in your life it is actually proof that you ARE chosen by God, because He is using it to bring you to the end of your self. The Bible says if anyone wants to follow Jesus they have to deny themselves and take up their cross. When we have a mentality that God is only good when we get what we want, and God is bad when anything goes wrong in our life then we are not denying our self. God is still good even if we suffer.
I know it can be hard when you’re in the midst of suffering, I’ve been through some myself but just know God is with you. If you once believed in Christ that fire has not gone out in your heart, even though you might be going through dark times now and your faith may be as small as a mustard seed. God will not let go of you that easily. Read those scriptures that tell you that God will NEVER forsake you (there’s a lot of them). One day you’ll look back on this and be glad it all happened because it moulded you, and strengthened you, making you into who Christ wants you to be. The “bad stuff” that happened to you was really for your good.